User Profile

Hello my name is Rebecca, Becky or Beckz I don't really mind which. I was born on St Patrick's day in 1988 in Hammersmith, London.

I was born with glue ear so spent almost all my childhood being partly deaf so I used to live in a fairly silent painful world with almost having ear infections constantly. My hearing is still slightly affected but it's load better than it used to be.
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I also have mild OCPD and used to suffer from BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) so my self confidence is very low and I hate going out anywhere alone. Although i'm not as bad as I used to be it still takes control of my life. I basically hate alot of things about me which includes my exterior all over, my personality, how badly I can take certain things, how stressed out I get over tiny problems, and absolutely hate my Voice!, there are other issues I have with myself aswell but if I continue this would just be a ridiculous length! Sometimes I just wish that I wouldn't have these problems anymore,but I guess thats how I'm stuck?! Although I do try to improve myself. Am I also quite strong minded and hate being wrong! Unfortunately! Sorry people! I am trying. I can also be quite open minded aswell again can have a few side effects both good and bad.
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I don't really have many friends,but I deffinately don't tell the ones I do have often enough that i'm thinking of them and I'm determind to change that! Just to tell them that I <3 them!
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I'm a total Car and Motorbike nut absolutely love them! Rarely do I talk about anything else.
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I am very much a tom boy!
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I am rather creative. I've recently decided I want to take this into my career by learning how to do air brushing so eventually I will be able to do paint jobs on bikes, cars and helmets. Well thats if I hopefully get good enough!:S but bonus that it mixes a number of my passions together.
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I also love animals. I went to Sparsholt College for 2 years doing a BTEC National Diploma in Animal Management.
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I am quite fiesty sometimes and can have a slight tendency to kick although generally that only happens when things I love are insulted.(Just Ask Aaron) I also hate hurting people.... honest!
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Otherwise I try being friendly, kind, supportive, try to give advice to my friends when they are having problems, and try to be funny(usually me making a total prat of myself in the process but oh well!) :P
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I get lonely quite alot, and withdraw myself away from people and things if I'm at a low point, not that I mean to it's just something I need to do sometimes to get things into order, which inevitably means I do lose people I am close too, but a few people do stick with me which I very much appreciate and love them dearly for it! I don't think they relise how much I do.
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I can switch to a total nutcase quite quickly (usually this can be quite a scary situation to happen so I really should have a warning on me!) although generally I am very quiet around people I don't know, but when I feel relaxed I do eventually settle down. ( I have also noticed I obviously have a strand thing for doing ! alot) :S
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I've never been in a pub or club! It may sound sad to some people but I really don't care, there is much more importantant stuff to worry about in life than getting drunk on a regular basis! That's pretty much me sumed up.
So if you just want a friendly chat you will be quite welcome too :).

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